welp....here goes nothing.

because thats how i was raised. my family pretty much brain washed me. like god is whats right, and nothing else. typical church every sunday kinda family. and i never really gotta break from that intell recently. and i didnt hop on because it was a trend. i really did honestly ask myself why i wasnt believing anymore, tryed to keep believing and i just keep reading stuff, and studying other religions and just decieded none of it was for me, that it was all just something our society made up. im not trying to play it off like i wasnt christian before, anything. ill admit everything ive ever believe. but now i dont believe anything im just me, im just here, when i die, i die. and as far as saying god free all the time, you will hardly ever here me say that. i did post something that said “fuck your god” early which is really unlike me because i dont like to disrespect other’s beliefs, but im probably having the shittiest week anyone could imagine, and that’s what i was feeling.